Missing Out

I missed out on the Festive Season this year. I am also feeling a bit crappy and down. I finally had to give P the break up letter. In a way, a part of me is relieved that something finally brought or is bringing closure. It could not continue that way. I was not being fair to her. I must have had sex with 5 girls after she left home and I still was with her. She didn't deserve that. I am not the guy for her.

We shared some great memories, and I'll never forget her nor the good times we had as a couple. Alas as they say, all things do come to an end. There is a part of me that will have a soft spot for her. I hope that I can resolve things eventually.

I have been looking on facebook recently, and I have been lambasted with people from the past. There have been some people I have had sex with and some that I want to have sex with. Hopefully I can score some old and new points with them!

Now this is just the thing. I feel as if I am missing out on it. If I get married to someone, I need to move out in the country somewhere where I won't get distracted or tempted. If I were to ever get married. Whoever that is would have to do good to get my attention and love for that long.

The end of the year is almost up, and it can't seem to finish sooner. I would like to get out of here soon. The sooner I get out and go to the more free land, the sooner my chances of getting sex would be better!

I find I just keep on going back to sex. I need to relax and find a hobby :(